Feel Defeated

Been back to my mother land for months, still been hanging around doing nothing. Went for several interview, so naive that i believe my performance was so good and the company must take me to work. Now i have to laugh at myself that , u are big bluffer..... If count i think i not been working for more than 5 months, almost half years. But too bad in this half years i never improve myself either. I got so many idea come across to my mind. But which one i do really go to do it .... none(oh ya, at least got one, trip bali with my daring lover, but still haven really confirm yet. i need to call them after this.) I am a piece of junk, too bad, my girl girl love me still so much make me feel a bit worthy as a person. I do really wish i am a snail, steped by somebody and ended my pethetic slow motion life.
I know why i feel helpless. Because i getting fatter, low self esteem........

Is that a Conspiracy????????????

I am so worry about Malaysia right now, because of the incidents happen, people tend to taking advantage from making Chaos. Most importantly, i feel helpless because of people being fool around by those power authorities conspiracy!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Wake up people, can't u all see the issues is a small matter..... Everyone should know the phrase "ALLAH" is a Arabic LANGUAGE it means GOD, for the god sake(no matter Allah or Jesus) u all can't understand????!!!!!!!!!!!Most importantly the language itself never form as the exclusive language for Islam use only. So what the hell wrong by using Arabic language to say GOD in Mag???

By the way, Christian people dun think in this incident u all are innocent and right!!!!! U all are wrong in the first place !!!!!!!( I mean the publisher to choose the word for use) If u want to print a mag in BAHASA Melayu, there is another More suitable word called "TUHAN" can use. What wrong of the earth u want to use " ALLAH" when u talking about BAHASA MELAYU mag?????? Some more put it into the court and let those authority people get the chance to start their conspiracy. They let u win the case and then ask those extremism to make the chaos then they can start to separate and destroy the peace and harmony between the race and religion..... This is the tactic of the power authorities use (all around the world) and all involve of this is a fool follower.
Yeah right, As a christian u can said, since is just a language why can't we use it.... But do Jesus want to see u all start a fight because of this word???? If Muslim think this word belong to them for name their GOD, GIVE it back to them and respect, why need to fight with them??? Do Jesus blame All the Christian when u can't use the words "ALLAH" ????? I'm not a Christan but my family is, and i do read bible sometime, What i know from Jesus is asking people to GIVE but not TAKE. Too bad, u all stood up and fight because of the word U all TAKING from those extremism that think belongs to them for names thier GOD. Jesus said love your enemy!!!!!!!! By the way only few of them is extremism(I mean those go to burn up the Chruch!!!!!), ALL Muslim i know is very kind and helpful person.(Peace protester) Since the extremism is so demanding of this.... Why not just give up and gave whatever they want!!!! Again , reminder for Christian, JESUS SAID LOVE YOUR ENEMY!!!!!!!!!!!
For those extermism, YOU ARE DOING "JIHAT" , i believe inside Qur'an never ask you to go do such offencesive way to fight on your ground!!!!!!!!!!! So don insult the Allah name by those nasty job you all ever done!!!!!
In this incidents there is no winning OR losing FOR the religion and people in the end... But, 1 thing i damn sure was Malaysia Losing it peace and harmony between Race and Religion as we use to have and Those people behind this win the power and those cash that fulfil their own interest!!!!!!!!!!! Wake up people!!!!!!

Show them to me

If u ever listen to this song before, Something u have to agreed which not one going to fighting when u see a topless woman.
I not trying to being prevert, but boobies is really amazing thing, if u believe one way to make the world peace , show them to me. LOL.
Recently downloaded this gorgeous album, is the original soundtrack for the MOvie call"Beer for the horse", haven got chance to find out how this movie work out, but the soundtrack make the movie "lookingforwardable". Song in there are just too good to listen.(If only u are big fans of blue,country and Rock song).
I done this blog while waiting my GG to finish her blog too and as well as listening this album.
Going to Egypt on Wed. Super excited and looking forward. Hope those egyptian will treat me and my GG nicely, let us have a happy and enjoyful trip.( U know why is not unforgetable trip indeed???? Cos the trip cost u a lot will make u unforgetable and unpleasant.) So, i want happy and enjoy!!!!!!

P/s: Here is the song, i choose one with subtitle, so please see the lyrics but dun too focus on those little puppies, Enjoy!!!!

LOve , lOve, LoVe, LovE

要知道一个巴掌是永远拍不响，

One hand will never sound,

爱能够维系因为倆个人为对方做得更好，

love can be longlasting because there have 2 person willing to make it better for each others.
如果一个人在改变，另一个却觉得理所当然，
If only one was putting the effort, but another think that is he/she necessary,
久而久之，在努力的不管有多爱，
When time goes by, no matter the one putting effort with full of love,
他\她都会离开因为有更好的出现了，
He/she will leave because there are a better one will more appreciated what been done,
被离弃的会恨背叛的，会忿怒被骗，
To those been dump will leave with hate because of betray, anger because of cheat,
但是否有想过，为什么爱人会离开？？？
But, do ever think of, why the love ones leave?????
如果说爱是容忍，不如说爱是进修，
If said love is patiance, it is better define as a development,
不进则退，不要怪你的伴侣抛弃你，
If there isn't any progress of develop, dun blame others leave u,
因为这是两个人的比赛，你不想改变也就没人能爱。
Love is a competition for 2 person, if you not willing develop youself for your love one, then you got no one to love anymore.

希望有一天，你会知道爱是了解，不是任性。

Hope one day u will know , love is understanding but not doing whatever you think is right.....

给你一根烟，让你看清误里有晴天。 Give u a cigarette, let you see there is a way on ur "mist"take.

干渴苦涩的一口烟，
One bite of dry and bitter smoke
混杂着郁闷的心情。
With the feeling consists of depress
误解在回忆里重复的重播,
Misunderstanding repeatedly replay in the mind
寻找着没有解释的答案。
Finding the unexplainable answer.

吐出一口弥漫浑浊的灰烟,
Blow out a mouthful of foggy smoke,
在灰暗的地带搜索着无尽的空白，
From the place of darkness searching for ultimate bright side,
迷幻的尼古丁麻痹了思想的神经，
Enhance of nicotine numb the nerve of thinking
无奈的思绪冻结了理智的逻辑，
Thought of helpless freeze the logic of rational,
事情原来并不需要逻辑，
Sometime, there is no need of appearance of logic
放下想要答案的压力，
Let go the pressure of finding the answer,
原来简单就可以很美丽，
Actually things are always beautiful when its simple,
浑烟散了天空还是一样的清晰。
Sky still clear as it is while the smoke gone.

爱的开始在相信， 爱的结束于怀疑。Love start with believe, love end at doubt

因为相信所以有爱，
Love exist because start to believe,可是爱却让人产生怀疑，
But, love drag out jealous and suspicious
怀疑让人生气，
Suspicious makes people angry,
生气让爱出走了，
Love leave when angry arrived
当没有爱， 人会相信怀疑。
When love gone, people start believe in suspicious
越怀疑， 越生气，
More suspect , more angry
爱在生气之间化为乌有。
Anger destroy love to nothing at all.